Contemplating mentality

I've been diving into the charts of some famous physicists, especially those whose birth times were easier to track, and I noticed something interesting: they’re all right oriented beings. This might go against the grain of the typical Human Design stereotype that associates intelligence with being left oriented.

As an employee of an Ajna department, i feel it's my job to bring some justice to this very misunderstood realm. Inner vision and outer vision are mirrored in channels made out of trigrams represented by Libra, and as such we are not only about justice, but balance between the two extremes, spleen and solar plexus. Timing in Ajna is truly relative, unlike the timing in the other two awarenes centers. Here, we are not bound by such concepts.

Ajna definition or openness has nothing to do with ones intelligence. What i have found is that the most intelligent people are the ones who's cognition has been nurtured correctly.

What happens when we are incorrect nodally is that we lose touch with our cognition and we can't remember how we learnt best as children. What i have observed till now is that children are truly in touch with their cognition. And it's us who push them away from it, and we cause them to stop trusting it. Especially with right orientations.

What i now remember with all this is Ra mentioning how easy it is to align the design side, due to no transference there. And it makes sense from what i have been seeing and what i remember of myself.

Right is sooo easy to align, they just need a bit of empowerment, that one thing that they really lack in life. Everyone is always telling us our way is wrong, weak, not profitable, not reliable, immature and risky.

As someone with an open Ajna, I’ve faced my share of judgments about my intelligence on this platform, with many making assumptions about my thought processes. I’m sharing this following info not to brag, but to empower my fellow righties and anyone else with an open Ajna who has felt dismissed by this system or its fan club.

















I was labeled a gifted child and had my IQ tested twice, once in kindergarten after my teachers noticed how quickly I could complete jigsaw puzzles, and again earlier this year. At 33 years old, my mental age was estimated to be 54, and I scored the highest on the scale. I was honestly shocked, as I didn’t expect such results, i expected them to be lower then when i was a child, as my development wasn’t properly nurtured in my early years due to lack of understanding of what giftedness meant then.

Growing up, I was very shy, so it was rare for anyone to recognize anything special about me. I often wouldn’t speak in school, even when I knew the answers to teacher's questions.

It was at age 9 that I discovered we would start learning about astronomy the following school year, and it was love at first sight! My neighbor, a year older than me, would lend me her school books, and I quickly moved on to advanced science books at the library. “A Universe in a Nutshell” by Stephen Hawking was the first chapter book I ever read, and I created a notebook called "Astronomical primer" in which i wrote down all kinds of things from books i didn't properly understand at the time. I remember "teaching" Schrödinger's equation to my mom and my little brother, not so much to teach, but as a way to memorize it easier.

I quickly stepped away from science as i lacked assistance with understanding it and, after attending my first meditation class with my mother at age 10, i delved into esoterics and the occult. At that time, there was no Google to help me decode the complex terminology in the science books, so it felt easier to explore the stories of the stars rather then their definitions.
















Richard Feynman is one of the people i resonate with deeply, listening about his learning process i realized it really mirrors my own. He emphasized learning through teaching, as a way of translating visuals into words. And when i say visual, I don't mean images, my visuals are texts rather then images. What i notice when i speak things out loud is where i lack understanding and thankfully, in this day and age i am easily able to expand on anything that needs expanding.

For example, when I came across the term "determination" in Human design, I understood its meaning but as I'm not a native english speaker, i always have this urge to double-check the definitions to ensure I understood the context of the design of Sun/Earth variables in this case. By googling this word, it just confirmed to me that this variable is the only logical place for inner authority to be a part of.

Feynman also helped me recognize a unique gift I have that I never even noticed as an oddity. He conducted an experiment where he would read a book while counting seconds in his mind, and he discovered that he can do those two things at the same time while being able to perfectly focus on both things. What i have realized is that I can speak while reading, that i am able to be present in both places at once. Back in school, I could easily cheat on oral exams by having a book hidden under my desk. I wouldn't read word for word, but easily absorbed the text as a whole and could re-tell it at the same time while listening to myself speak. I can easily hold a perfectly attentive conversation with my partner while reading a book at the same time.

I thrive in environments with multiple stimuli rather than focusing on just one. If I try to read a single text without any distractions, in perfect peace and quite, my mind tends to wander, and I catch myself re-reading the same sentence over and over.

One thing i can say about my open Ajna is that nobody was ever able to condition the way i think. I easily bounced off any such attempt since early age. I became a vegetarian as a toddler, and no matter how much my parents tried to convince me of the benefits of eating meat, it never made sense to me to eat an animal, it was just completely illogical in my mind. I was raised in a very christian family and i became an atheist around the time i discovered astronomy. It didn't make sense. The whole world around me made no sense, even though everyone was always trying to convince me how that's the way to go.

I caused a lot of stress to my parents living as myself, and that was another thing that made no sense. They would get really worried about my weird interests as they thought those would never make money in the world we lived in. So, i masked my rightness, but i never let it get away.

I always loved myself. I always thought i was the most interesting person i knew. And often thought about the concept of self love during my teenage years. I would ask myself things like "if i would take myself for a date, would i like me?" And the answer was always yes. Not because i thought i was superior over anyone, but because i always found my mind the most interesting one i have ever met.

I spent this year thinking a lot about what is that one thing that i'd do if i was free to do anything i wanted. I really wanted to find that one thing that i was most passionate about. And i thought a lot about my early years and how there were so many different things i wanted to grow up to be. Starting college was a nightmare as i had a very difficult time deciding between 5 different things i wanted to study. I have gone through so many courses, gave up on two different colleges, had way too many interests to name.

But ultimately, there was only one pattern, one thing that remained. The only thing i have forever been passionate about... Learning.

So many of us in this system who are doing readings or are teaching courses talk about enjoying teaching, and i did say that too. But that was while i didn't understand this clearly.

Teacher is my correct output frequency, but it's not something i have an urge to do at all. All i want to be is a student. Forever. Of all of it. And if that comes across as educational to others, then according to HD, you are receiving my correct exit frequency. My motivation is for you, not for me.

LaRa